Rosie

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 05:47:14 GMT

wait, this away message of mine better sums up my state of mind right now
i detest my life right now. i'm half-heartedly into its
alpha and omega. and i want to denunciate everything
within miles. but, i suppose i'll go study until i turn (as
always) negligent for a feel good reverie because i'm a
stupid fkng full time visionary wench.

i'm thinking of just being a vagabond.

humph.

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 03:40:34 GMT

i abhor my school. i fancy my psychology class wholly.
my astronomy class.... information wise: i love cosmology
otherwise: i am entirely irritated by test taking.
i abhor the school i attend. (which is scc)
i loathe everything in this floridian envrioment.
in fact, i don't really care about the enviroment.

i want to go to UC B/SF.

PSYCH

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 02:36:37 GMT

so humans tend to blame people for their own misfortune. and we also hype up internal attributions rather than external.

ex. when you pass a homeless man you more than likely think that he is homeless because he is lazy and won't get a job. there's not much time to formally assess situations and people so we make quick, and usually wrong, judgements on people. and blaming them for their own current situations also makes us feel better. but think about this...the government cut money from going to mental hospitals at one point, therefore they had to send people away. so what happened to them? some became homeless. i'm thinking that is a possible reason why we find so many homeless people with mental illness.

but anyway, with that whole quick judgement thing in mind, i don't know what the FUCK to think about this.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lj3iNxZ8Dww
to be formal i might say maybe she was just nervous. it's tough being watched and critiqued like so. my honest quick reaction is, yeah. you know.

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 05:22:48 GMT

i'm plagued by something insanely larger than myself.
i'm plagued by the question, the ultimate question..
what's the meaning of life?
why should i make connections with people if i keep getting disapponited? i can't make up my mind on whether everyone is the same or everyone is different. are humans really all ONE or are we completely un-ONE? is trying to stray away from american things and looking to the east futile and a waste of time? should i try to be more out going? is it really worth it if it seems that no one really cares about you, but rather is always looking to the door to watch
the best new thing arrive?
yet again, i can't listen to what the answer is, which is to go for it all anyway, but i'm rebelling against my own gut feelings and have allowed doubt and skepticism to devour my soul.

LYFESUX.

Motivation.

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 21:24:25 GMT

I think that is a primary issue that immobilizes young people today.
Ah, everyone, 今晩は。
Me personally, and from what I see in other kids around me, life isn't all that hard. It's quite astounding how much can be done with minimal effort. Does anyone ever freeze to think of how many choices we have in life? Schools, hairstyles, shoes, friends, hobbies, food menus, instruments to play, underwear to wear, tv channels, websites, service providers, music genres. GOD DAMN.
:/ you just have to do something. choose something but. ..
but you need motivation to do something right? はい。you really do need it.
sigh
why don't humans interact with each other more? i mean people go to clubs and huddle together quite often. or someone throws a party and people play games and drink. or people go to shows. or people go to movies. or they go for walks in the park. or they just chill. but i think more people need to do it more. or maybe this is just a phase that young adults go through. it seems like there is so much empty, unfilled time in peoples lives that i see. including mine. :/

THERE'S REALLY NO REASON TO HAVE SO MUCH EMPTY, UNFILLED TIME!!! AND I AM EATING MY OWN WORDS BUT STILL.....I make the efforts to say these things because I think my time will come. 結構です。No, I'm not actually waiting for it to come. I am walking myself to it.

word.
not my usually signing off but a close variation of the same meaning...
お大事に。take care.

SCC

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 01:31:14 GMT

i dun give a what about the place. but it gave me time to think and i've come to the conclusion, that choosing something is better than choosing nothing. nothing is really holding you down. you can usually always change your mind. what i've learned since graduating highschool was that the first step is to make up your mind or change your mind. then you can take it from there to anywhere. anywhere. if you aren't feeling Florida anymore, try somewhere new. try a new country. try a new language. think something is interesting? good. have interests. might be easier said than done but you are all young. it's alright.

as for me, I am afraid but that is life. I am, as I've been saying, sticking with the language dealio. Just as with drumline, if I didn't try it I would have regretted it. And I loved it. With language, I will regret not trying to learn one I was truly interested in for the rest of my entire fucking life. Do it. Do it. Ugh. I hate how some days I feel the weight of the world and can't seem to live up to my own advice. But I'm gonna keep trying.

Friends, pals, associates, lurkers. . please. . .
お元気で.

What they say, ask yourself, does it matter?

Tue, 29 May 2007 04:35:03 GMT

It absolutely means nothing of what you've ever done. It means something on the level of always being a memory, but shall not ever hold bars on your future life. You may have stepped in a puddle or two or three, but you can step over the next one and the next one and the next one. Others might make comments that deter you from your satisfaction but ask yourself, does it matter what they think? I know it's hard to make a perfect first impression and it can be hard to limit judgements but things are never exactly what they seem so always keep and open mind and heart. Communication in relationships and friendships and family is the key to Happiness City.

どうぞお元気で.

Possibly Maybe

Thu, 03 May 2007 00:08:13 GMT

Your flirt
it finds me out
teases the crack in me
smittens me with hope
Probably maybe probably love
As much as I definitely enjoy solitude
I wouldn't mind, perhaps
spending little time with you
sometimes, sometimes
Possibly maybe probably love
Uncertainty excites me, baby
who knows what's going to happen?
lottery or car crash -
or you'll join a cult
Probably maybe possibly love
Mon petit vulcan
you're eruptions and disasters
I keep calm
admiring the lava : I keep calm
Possibly maybe probably love
Electric shocks? I love them!
with you : dozen a day
but after a while I wonder
where's that love you promised me? where is it?
Possibly maybe probably love
How can you offer me love like that?
my heart's burned
how can you offer me love like that?
I'm exhausted - leave me alone!
Possibly maybe probably love

Since we broke up
I'm using lipstick again
I'll suck my tongue
in remembrance of you

THE MUSIC IS PLAYING AND HELL YES STEWIE, THERE IS ROOM FOR 1 MORE

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 09:48:44 GMT

d-_-b Been listening to music like crazy these past few days. I'm really intent on finding some new stuff. Crazy electronic, ambient type stuff. Something with amazing bass beats to listen to on a cold day. Been listening to Groove Corporation, Mr. Scruff, Wagon Christ, Plaid, Squarepusher and Telefon Tel Aviv. AMAZING
School is good. Things are chill. No. Just more chill than before. Not completely chill. But good enough.
d(*⌒▽⌒*)b

♪┏(・o･)┛♪┗ ( ･o･) ┓♪┏ ( ) ┛♪┗ (･o･ ) ┓♪┏(･o･)┛♪

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 05:27:59 GMT

悲しい出来事も輝きにかえる..........Even sad events turn into radiance

Something to say to myself when lingering at the border of my element.

WHAT I GOT FO' クリスマス(Kurisumasu)

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 21:56:34 GMT

First off, クリスマス wuz killa.
クリスマス = KURISUMASU(CHRISTMAS)

Clothes. dur. From mom. Sweet shirts and pajamas.
Sister and niece bought me Hello Kitty and Family Guy. super schweet.
Cousin got me clothes, Asian bowl and bag and Hello Kitty stuff. EVENMORESCWEET.
But man, I didn't know my brother cared. We aren't really close but we really have
a lot in common it turns out. When I go to Japan, he wants to come with me.
But what he bought me.. a DVD of an anime MASTERPIECE. artwork is second to none.
And a computer cd/book on Japanese lessons.

Also, I picked out this Kung-Fu library type thing for my brother but I
wasn't sure if he was into old old chinese movies, cause recently I love it.
I picked it out for my mom to get it for him but she gave it to me. SCWEET. 27 hrs
of Jackie Chan, haaa, Bruce Leeeeee, Sonny Chiba and etc. She bought him a bike instead.

ALSO, MORE IMPORTANTLY, my ともだち sent me an email saying she got my letter.

Sick sick. killer. doko doko dooppe. freaky freaky fresh.
Well, あけましておめでとうございます. (Happy New Years)
RORO

Today was very touching and amazing and unbelieveable. spelling?

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 04:12:15 GMT

I was thinking "Damn, I have to go to work. Here I am at work" this morning at about 9:45. But when I come in my cousin was already there and had checked the mail from the day earlier and said "I have something that will make you happy" and she handed me this envelope and it was from my friend in Japan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She sent me a letter. Here I thought again that she had forgotten about me or decided that I really was a crazy American girl but she sent me a friggin Christmas card and it was no ordinary card. It was the most amazing pop-up 3 Dimensional card ever. Too cute. It was a Japanese scenery, temple, mountain in the back, bridge and lake and little santas everywhere with asian style umbrellas.

And that isn't even the best part..... She sent me a picture of her family and wrote a note
on the back of that too! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Actually, for the past few days I've been trying to rewrite a letter I was going to send to her and figure out how to write her address correctly but I thought, "what if she thinks I am obsessed for sending a letter or something. Even though it is major to send a New Years card in Japan. And it has to arrive on Jan 1. No earlier or later. And you are in trouble if someone sent you a card and you didnt not send them one as well.

But anyways, I am American. So I won't worry about no dates or such. But now I am definetly going to get on top to sending a letter. I don't have a single "family" picture though. :(
I'll figure something out but man, you guys might think I am insane but you have to understand... Everyone at school was telling me "Rosie, there's this Japanese exchange student and she is so strange but cool, you should meet her" but I never did until 2nd semester. I didn't want 2nd lunch but I found out I would meet her and when I showed her my class ring with my Japan flag she said I was crazy!!

Ha. I was crushed, but later she said hi to me and knew my name!!!! Then she let me borrow
her own Kimono and shoes and I didn't even ask! And she gave me a picture of herself and showed me pictures of her family and we wrote notes on japanese paper to each other and and and
on the last day at school, she gave me a whole bag of stuff. Just me! And and anddddddd...then she emailed me first, wrote me first. wahhhh. And on her going away party, I felt much sadness.

So in all, today was amazing. It really topped the cake.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 05:01:22 GMT

I watch this Japanese show with these comedians.
There is a pair of comedians called DownTown and
one called CocoRico and then just one extra guy...
anyway

they sometimes do this thing called "Batsu Games"
where they go through different scenarios, and they
cannot laugh. If they do they get punished...
usually whacked on the ass with this paddle,
or a whip, or sometimes darts shot in their asses.

Anyway, my point is, it is some good tv.

Bullseye

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 04:44:23 GMT

I went to Bullseye, a.k.a Tarzayyy, a.k.a Target

I bought this thing called an iHome. It plays your iPod, the radio, and it also acts
as an alarm. And it can wake you up to sounds of the radio, or the catchy tunes on
your iPod. Or if you like the norm, a regular old buzzer.

I first saw one at Miss REL's house. I thought it was quite grand, but didn't think
I'd be buying one myself. It was the spur of the moment decision. And mannnn,
was it a grand one! Waking up the smooth jazz radio is amazing! And I re-modeled my
room again. I have a table w/ lots of incense, candles, a buddha, and my iHome.
woooot.

Listening to Lily Chou-Chou, Utada Hikaru, Mika Nakashima, KAT-TUN, ARASHI (my favorite),
MIYAVI, W-inds, the Yoshida Brothers, Kittie, Darkest Hour, Kodo, Asian Kung-Fu Generation
and everything else is so incredibly marvelous now. More than before because it's right beside
my comfortable futon. I am a person who likes to lay in bed and hear the music right beside me,
without having to wear uncomfortable headphones or earplugs in my ear, blasting my brains out.
Note: futon: origin = japan

Cheers to my new iHome, and cheers to Ms. Ariel, the other iHome owner!!!

JP is a day ahead of us, by the way.

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 19:47:31 GMT

Yukio Mishima
January 14, 1925- November 25, 1970

I don't know why you killed yourself.
There are endless reasons to choose from.
But, I now understand today, why you appeal
to me so much. I also know, I must live on
but, you are still my crazy hero. Don't forget
about that small request I made today. If you
are too busy then it's alright. Don't know Morita,
but hope he's alright as well.

お元気で, おねがいします。

ai o komete,
ロージー

TEKKON KINKREET.[ the trailer]

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 02:35:47 GMT

THE MUSIC FOR THIS TRAILER. YOU MUST LISTEN TO IT.
NO, THE TRAILER ITSELF. THIS STORY HAS BEEN TAKEN TO A WHOLE
NEW LEVEL. CAN IT BE COMPARED TO ANYTHING ELSE?
..
...
MICHEAL A., I HAVE REALLY HIGH EXPECTATIONS FOR THIS FILM.
"WE CAN DO IT, WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER." 鉄コン筋クリート[TEKKON KINKREET]: "In Treasure Town, orphans Black [クロ] and White [シロ] (note: I wrote the names in Japanese so that you know which character is which when they display the names in the video. by the way, they are both boys) rule the mean streets through violence and terror. These lost boys are direct opposites: Black being a streetwise punk who embodies everything wrong about the city, while White is a innocent dope, out of touch with the world around him. Together, they're unstoppable as they take on petty thugs, religious fanatics and brutal yakuza. But when a corporation called "Kiddy Kastle" tries to tear down and rebuild Treasure Town to fit its own goals, the boys must save the soul of their beloved city, that is if they can save themselves from inner demons." eeeeEEHH? if you guys don't like me talking about non-american things, tell me what to talk about. you are all boring me.

Dec. 4th....Bye America! I'll be back!

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 02:08:40 GMT

This is a possibility. Well here are the requirements:
1. 18-60 years old. YEAH, I am not 60 yet!
2. High school grad. YES. fresh grad
3. In good health. yes yes yes

3,500 USDOLLARS? No problemo ese.
It is all a matter of will I do it or not. It is only the Total Beginner program, for 3-4 weeks. I am not a "TOTAL" beginner, but this will be more intense than the Japanese 1 and 2 I took at SCC. (I still love you Midori sensei!) But it is the way I wanted to go. Exactly the way. I want to first visit Japan before I make a decision to live there. And when I visit I was hoping I could learn Japanese. And I can keep taking the program to become proficient. I can keep taking part in the program and eventually do the stay for 6 months or even a year thing, when I am at the level. Expensive thing to keep up with, but, this is a wide ass DOOR for me. How can I stand in front of the door watching others pouring in and out and not take part? Well I could start next year but there's also one last session this year that starts on DECEMBER 4th for 3-4 wks. That is so soon! But, I can't wait forever. No. I absolutely can't put it off. I've made a goal from my dream to get the hell out of here. And I hoped that I could jump on it as soon as possible. I'm a fresh grad and the chance is already here...................Hm.............I've made my choice. How did I finally make it? Because I thought, "Man, how much will I regret not taking the classes?" Uh like bloody hell.

BY THE WAY, Anyone want participate in something similar in another country? Spain? Germany? China? Korea? France? Italy? Austrailia? or possibly the UK to learn the English way of life?

LET ME KNOW!

I know it's old but I really miss him...

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 22:25:52 GMT

AHHHH. If any of you remember, I was really psyched on us going into space on a mission to discover the truth of our precious/mysterious 9th planet, Pluto. Oh wait, but now, he isn't a true planet anymore. >_< That really pains me. In the soul. Ah, it is weird! To say that we have 8 planets. Ahh, dwarf planet my ass. But then again, science can really prove a lot of stuff (but then again it can't) and well Pluto my boy, you really are quite smaller than the others. Sorry.

BUT I STILL LOVE YOU AND I WILL FIND YOU IN THE SKYYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha for real, more than Japan, that I can't wait to see what Pluto is all about and and and especially the Kuiper Belt. ^_^ But still, ahhh, I was all excited for this mission to the "Very last unvisited planet." not the same case now. a little heart broken here...

お元気で

Blue Flame [Blue Light]

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 02:45:41 GMT

The words with the black background read:
こんなにも
切ない殺人者が、
いただろうか
切ない殺人者
or translated :
[was there ever such a sad murderer.....a sad murderer?]

And the last thing he says is:
僕は、独りで世界と戦っている。
[I, alone, fight the world.]
Basically here he states that he is the only one
who can go against the one ruining his family.

Watching this young boy try and rid the man legally,
and when it fails, tries to set up the perfect crime.
quite moving~! i watched it again this month!

お元気で

THE LIST

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 23:00:48 GMT

of all the little things I want to do in Japan.. it drives me crazy.

-Wake up early and ride to work on the train, like others
-Open a window on the warm/hot days and not use air conditioning. [hmm, might take some time on that. those people think its "nice" outside when its like 93 degrees!!! >_<]
-Take the [First Shrine Visit of the Year] after New Year
-Hang out in Akihabara [town where a lot of electronics are sold, but now also a lot of anime or collector people [OTAKU] hang out. You can get girls panties in a plastic ball out of a machine. and there is a "Maid Cafe" where the girls are dressed as Maids, obviously.]
-Say [Itadakimasu] when I eat and slurp my ramen loudly.
-Make friends and especially drinking buddies. In Japan you gotta have some.

and the most important ones...
-RIDE THE SHINKANSEN...[bullet train]
-SURVIVE THE EARTHQUAKES...[afraid]

どうぞお元気で

I went to Japan. No REALLY. Well at EPCOT ...

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 02:24:42 GMT

Went to the JAPAN pavillion of EPCOT. Spoke JAPANESE to one lady. Got even more chopsticks. Now I have 7 pairs? Woot. Still a little shaken. But what the hell, I am an adult. ADULT. Time to deal with bigger issues and more people and more laws and taxes and all that fun fun FUN STUFF!

どうぞお元気で

FUTURE MOVIE RELEASES

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 03:52:35 GMT

Where the Wild Things Are [2007] ... I will absolutely cry when I see this. So many people say, [OH YEAH! I remember that book. It was so good.] What do you mean you remember, as if you had once forgotten, which is the real crime, to have ever forgotten it. For real though, I am proud to say I have owned and own a new pair of pajamas that have footies!
He-Man and the Masters of the Universe [2006] - HEY! It's bloody HE-MAN!
Transformers [2007] - um, the title says it all.
Life of Pi [2007] - don't TRULY care but am interested. I have a raised brow.

BLOODY ASIAN REMAKES
Oldboy [2008]And this was Korean for sure. The original isn't some same ol' horror flick. It was about revenge, the sadness and backfire that can come with revenge, and persons fight for their own. It is part of the BRILLIANT trilogy by an amazing director, but now, it's about to be smashed to crap. Like all Asian remakes. Bloodymotherfudginghell. i don't believe any of the beautifully made Asian films can ever fully translate into an American version, let alone ANY FOREIGN FILM for that matter. The proof is in the puddin' or actually in this case, the translation. Never translates all the way.
The Eye [2007] This was a Korean movie too, I think. With an Eye 2 that came out shortly afterward.

どうぞお元気で

Rosie's encounter w/ a Japanese boy in Japanese class today!!!

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 01:41:39 GMT

Ok, EVERYONE! How are you? In good health? What about your family? I hope all is well!! ^_^ Oh ME? Yeah, I went to work today. It was alright.

BUT BUT BUT, I went to Japanese class thinking it was going to be just another class and I notice and new Asian kid and I find out he is infact JAPANESE and an exchange student. Holy crap. So yeah I am thinking, "I gotta do good today. Pronounciation had to be good, answering questions that others can't and finding a way to talk to him." AHHHHHH He was the cutest cutest Japanese boy I've seen in person since the Japanese band students from Hiroshima were here. So~, during break I asked the kid who he was staying with some questions, and then the Japanese boy said [Excuse me, why] and he was trying to figure out how to say what got me started or what prompted me to take Japanese. But he took out this translator thing so I said [Ahh. sugoi ne!] which I was basically telling him that the translator was cool. So I told him I really like Japanese and I want to live there. And then when we all had to go back to class I said [Ikimasho!] which means [let's go.] And he understood! And then back in class I just decided to ask him if he liked manga [japanese comics/graphic novels] and yeah that was basically the extent of our encounter but i made sure I had made it clear throughout the whole class period that I was one of the good students. AHH, and then I said to myself, well no one else really knows what to say to him so I will say something nice when class is over, so I basically said what I end all my entries in which is [o-genki de!], which means [take care]... to be exact I said [Hidaka-san, o-genki de!] and to be exact my ending of entries version is more formal but yeah.

AHHHHHHHH I can die happy now. I was so happy he talked to me! I love him. Bwahaha but I love them all so whatever. And I will probably see him next week. I wish I could have brought him home. -_- grr. But anyways,
Mina-san,
どうぞお元気で

>_< Late for 1st Session of 日本語 class

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 12:34:37 GMT

I am a nocturnal creature. I think. I always come out at night to feed and then sleep all day. ^_- But anyways, at the first session of my 日本語2 class I was 20 minutes late! -_- It sucked! I felt very guilty. Plus I bet it was weird for everyone to see a new face because they were all in 日本語1 together and I took 日本語1 two or three years ago. But it was fun coming in late and getting right into things and able to remember stuff they all forgot! HA! A little ego boosting. ^_-But today, is going to be even better. I can't wait. The teacher and I always have a small conversation together. She said she lived near the area in Hiroshima where the Japanese Exchange students were from.

By the way, could anyone picture me as being an English teacher? It sounds pretty weird but I just might do it. An interesting event happened: I thought my mom didn't really want to know about what I want to do in Japan. I thought she was really against it, but she woke me up early last week to show me this guy talking on CSPAN about how he has been living in Japan for a year now and he teaches English. And she goes, "See? You said you were having trouble figuring out what job to have there and what the government would accept. You can be an English teacher!" I was too tired @_@ and groggy to really care so I said, "This is what you woke me for? Cool. I am going back to bed." But as I left I thought, wow, ^o^ she really thought about it. She sounded interested and tried to be helpful in my decision of moving to Japan. ^_^ She is a great mom. Lots of talk, ne? Gomen.

どうぞお元気で

01Revival

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 15:06:44 GMT

Half of me feels a carrying on of my previous journal/journals because in reality, my life hasn't started over. I didn't die and then appear somewhere else.But then the other half feels a revival. A renewal of sorts. It is likely borderline. Feels good to be public though. This journal will likely be [more] jabberwocky, my run on sentences, my babbles. [strain of conciousness.]... but even so, I apologize and...
どうかよろしく。^_-

どうぞお元気で。[Take care]